5th Day Back on Paxil
Wednesday, July 12th, 2000 (continued).
Today is my 5th day back on Paxil after going through cold turkey withdrawal.
I felt tired yesterday and a little depressed, and then around 10:00pm I seemed to get a second wind (after eating a large supper). But it also left me wide awake and I couldn’t go to sleep, not until about 1:30 in the morning.
I woke up this morning feeling depressed. My dreams seem to have a strong effect on my moods. I’ve never been a morning person, but I hate waking up feeling like I don’t want to get out of bed.
I’m tried to have a good breakfast and put good things into my body (I’m learning more about proper nutrition). Before my going cold turkey, I was feeling really good. No depression at all, positive spirits, no “social anxiety,” no fear underlining my actions. Now, having gone through the hell of withdrawal and then going back on the Paxil at my regular dose, all of those things have been affected. — And I’m am dying for a coffee and a cigarette (but saying no to both).