Paxil Free

Wednesday, October 18th, 2000 (continued).

Doug said to a previous message:

This is an excellent response. I agree. However, I must state that I took Paxil for almost 3 years and it seemingly worked wonders for me… for a while.

The people I know personally (not through email or through paxilprogress.org) who took Paxil for extreme anxiety and panic attacks — every single one of them ended up taking on that “sedated” look I mentioned before. And there’s no way that can be good. All of them say they couldn’t live without Paxil, regardless of the weight gain and the sexual dysfunction it causes them. But neither have any of them done anything else except take Paxil to take care of themselves. They’re still living off coffee and cigarettes like they’ve always done. So, in a way, they got what they deserved. Nothing gets better in the absence of a willingness to change. Taking a little pink pill only delays the inevitable.

The calm that Paxil may provide can offer one the opportunity to work on the anxiety, but the anxiety will come back if one doesn’t actually work on it. This is something I see happening with many people, as well as having lived through it myself. It doesn’t take much to figure this one out.

I agree with you that Paxil can and often does make a difference at first. I have no doubt about it that Paxil did help me at one point; it helped me get through an extreme crisis situation, extreme stress, extreme anxiety, all during a time when my coping skills were not so good. For the duration I was on Paxil, I did everything I could to get my act together — and now, except for the anxiety related to the withdrawal, I do have it together (I hope). When I think of how I was, say two years ago, I am amazed at how far I’ve come, how effectively I deal with anxiety and stressful situations when they come up. I’m not 100% all the time, but who the hell is? (Nobody.)

I haven’t a single doubt that the makers of Paxil deliberately perpetuated a fraud by not fully informing the FDA, doctors and the public of the withdrawal effects of Paxil — to this day they clearly misinform doctors (the ones prescribing the medication) by telling them that Paxil is not an addictive drug, that there is no risk of physical and psychological dependency. Bullshit. And everyone who’s experienced Paxil withdrawal knows it. Like you said, “[It] has been an absolute nightmare getting off it (and there were side effects).”

You said:

I spent a good portion of my life avoiding most social situations, and am finding myself back there again. Only now there is the withdrawal and all of its symptoms on top of that. And I did a lot of work to get over all that when I was on Paxil. So, I’m very disappointed in the overall usefulness of the drug.

The same thing has happened to me. I find that I do experience some anxiety in social situations, or in anticipation of social situations. Not all the time, but when I do, there’s no doubt about it, it’s there. But I don’t relate this entirely to any previous condition. I think it’s due in large part to my Paxil withdrawal.

At the moment I am weaning myself off the Paxil and am down to 10mg (alternating between 5mg and 10mg). At least half of this past month I’ve been a walking zombie. Talk about being out of it; my brain has felt like mash potatoes. The last few days have been surprisingly smooth, but I’m only down to 10mg right now — that’s halfway there. My body is going through an extreme physiological adaptation now. Everything is out of whack. Experiencing some of the old anxiety doesn’t surprise me.

It’s my feeling that when I finally get the Paxil out of my system, and I’m exercising, taking my vitamin supplements and doing all kinds of other good things to keep myself healthy, the anxiety that I occasionally experience now from the Paxil withdrawal won’t be as common; it certainly won’t be debilitating. And the same may be the case for you.

Also, having taken Paxil for three years, even after you’ve taken the last pill, I’m inclined to think that it could take several more months before your body and your brain have flushed all the Paxil out of your system and have readjusted to living without it. Three years is a long time to be on Paxil (any more than 6 months is a long time if you ask me). I think the longer a person is on Paxil, the longer it will take to get over it.

Paxil can play a positive role in dealing with certain types of anxiety, but, again, it should always be a last resort. I can’t see what the good is if trying to get off the drug is worse than the problem you took the Paxil for in the first place. What a scam, ah?

Postscript - February 6th, 2001: In this post, I said, “I think the longer a person is on Paxil, the longer it will take to get over it.” This isn’t necessarily true. Everyone is different.

P.S. (Sept. 2006): Wikipedia has an entry for social anxiety. It may not be a simply a marketing slogan. However, treating social anxiety with Paxil or other SSRIs should be a last resort. Paxil is the easy fix; it requires absolutely no work or will power. So it’s very attractive. But from my experience, the risks aren’t worth it. It’s been almost 6 years since I stopped taking Paxil, and I can still feel the effects of the withdrawal. Here’s a quote from the Wikipedia article:

Research has shown cognitive behavior therapy, whether individually or in a group, to be effective in treating social phobics. The cognitve and behvioral components seek to change thinking patterns and physical reactions to anxious situations. This may be done through a technique called role playing. Prescribed medications consists of a class of antidepressants called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). Such treatment has a high response rate and low risk of dependency [sure it does] but has been criticized for its adverse side-effects and possible increase in suicide risk.

Attention given to social anxiety disorder has significantly increased since 1999 with the approval of drugs for its treatment. Marketing campaigns by pharmaceutical companies may be largely responsible for driving this.